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Monday, December 21, 2009
I'm sorry i know your hurt i understand i swear. i didn't know i would have never said any thing if i knew. but i guess that doesn't matter now. but i really understand now so please let me in please don't tell me its to late. i really don't know why but i want to be right there with you when your heart wears thin cause when it dose I will hold you up. i dont know why i care all i know is that i do i cant sleep at night knowing what might be going through your head. i know what its like to feel as if the world was against you. i know how hard it is to losse some one who threw you away. i swear i can understand. please let me in. hurt me how ever you want it wont kill me. knowing even i only might have hurt you is whats killing me now. i know how it feels to be betrayed by the ppl who you thought cared for you the way you cared for them. i've gone through it so much that the scars are harder then rock so if you need a sheild i will be yours. i dont mind. you may be thinking i'm stupied and that i dont understaned but i wont stop trying to make you let me understand. i remeber how it felt to only get a glims of how it felt to be rejected by some one so i can only imagin ho wyou must feel. please dont close up. let me be there for you i can hold you up i swear...
...i'm sorry, please forgive me. i can help.
-M.Luis
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5:32 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
psst!
that's where it started. my journey to the unknown. well to me at least i began to walk not knowing were i was going. when my guide asked me if i knew where we were the thoughts occurred to me that i didn't know were i was and if i should be putting so much trust in some one i don't know. the guide assured me of where we were going. i was fine i didn't give it a second though. is that OK? as we continued down the road my mind started to wander. every thing seemed so different here not like the small carefully pieced together world i made for my self. it was like a blank canvass. or more like i was a blank canvass. No one knew me here, yet the would all assume something about me. it was so different from the place I'm used to the air, people, and surroundings were so new. i remembered at one point thinking is it possible that their are people around I've seen or talked to before using my aileis
hm, cant seemto finish this...oh well :/
-M.Luis
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9:26 PM
Thursday, September 24, 2009
ok really know...
hate. that is a very strong word, agreed? personally I don't think i could honestly say i truly hate any one. there are people whom i strongly dislike i will admit to that but any one who i fully hate. ok? so any one out their who may think i "hate" you your wrong. the thing is not that i hate you or that i have any type of grudge against you. you only assumed that. over the time where we were close friends i honestly felt like i was always trying so hard to be your friend rather than just being you friend. it seemed as if i was always just an extra. it's been said other wise lately though. i guess you just never realized that you were always pushing me out or maybe you felt you did nothing wrong but so you know things were not good for a long time. so stop telling me you were there. you were not. think when did we even last chill you do know things were bad before i gave up and changed right? I will admit that i gave up on the friendship. call me a quitter if you must tell people its my fault its fine. but if you felt like you truly did not belong and that people did not want you around non the least try to make the effort to make you feel welcome would you not leave to? not like there was hate there was just me moving on with life. i dont understand why im now being seen as that bad person now. its not like you ever made an effort your self. well of course there was the multiple pointless and repetitive question of where i was going. honestly did you care it's not like you were going to come were you? think about it. i mean do you realize how many times you asked me that same question in one night those random time our paths would cross. hm i guess what im trying to say is stop assuming things, talking about me with others and just get your facts straight. I don’t hate i just don’t care. your as much to me as much as i am to you. get it? so to finish this if you really have something to say about me then just tell me straight up because this hole talking to people about me thing is getting old. get it though your heads it not that there is even a problem were just not friends any more you all ready know that.
- M.Luis
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8:34 PM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
uhh. -.-
just when i think i got something it just another untouchable type. i did chose carefully this time though made sure i had a chance but i guess i made things weird hu? guess im just not ready yet or something :/ dam though this was a real slap in the face though of all the people in Canada LOL
Fail x infinity and beyond :(
-M.Luis
my imagination at
9:36 PM
Madda shit!
i swear my past keeps coming back to bite me in the ass lately. shit dose the term "don't look to the past what happened has happened" mean nothing any more. uhg this shit is ridicules stop saying you were their. you were there a few times but that was so long ago. you haven’t been there in so long you never cared Lol you were so occupied with your on shit. don’t get me wrong i don’t blame you or any thing is just stop saying you made such an effort. you did not! no matter what you do or say things are never going to be the same you know that right? i don’t even know why your getting so defensive now. you haven’t looked to me as a friend in so long any way what’s the difference now? hu? never mind don’t answer that. ugh i don’t mean to be rude i just cant find any other way to say this ya know? its just i don trust you i cant see you as any one other then just another random i say hi to in the halls once in a blue moon. the hole thing with you bringing the past up again.. i don't even start with it its unfinished business but it doesn’t need to be completed its to late for that now it doesn’t mater any more any way every one goes around as if we were complete strangers any way. honest. i REALLY like it that way it makes situations that would be very messy easy to avoid. all those things that happened in the past seem so far off to me that’s its practically seems as if it never happened. you need to move on stop trying to make the past come back find bigger and better things in life im telling there probably is much better. i under stand what your going through trying to make thing all bee ok and back to how they were before. i was trying to do that for almost a year and so much passed me by. i'm telling you move the FUCK on. non of it is worth saving. usually never is. my bad for putting it so bluntly but its the truth yea know? but what ever man its up to you dude my advice to you i guess.
-M.Luis
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8:59 PM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
alright now yea see what happens when you play with fire you get burned. so you can stop now you learned your lesson right? can you come back now? like just saying cause like if you start with other things now then you could be causing some trouble for you self just so you know? hm you probably wont listen to me cause you think i don't know shit WHICH I DO FWI!!! but do take this in to consideration. do not let your pride and the beliefs of others sway you to endanger your self. i mean think for your self don't let others walk all over you. make you own thoughts don't take some one else's. if you do something it's because you said so. if you become some one make sure its because you want to become that person. don't do things so others will accept you. as long as you'er happy with your self its all good in the hood ya dig? in the most simple way i can think to say this... don't do shit just cause every ones else is. if they jumped of the school would you do it to? Lol any way just do you, for you. oh yeah and STOP DOING STUPIED THINGS OR YOUR HOUSE WILL GET RAIDED LOL!
-M.Luis
my imagination at
9:21 PM
i miss you. really and sincerely i miss you. i really don't know why its just i want you around again you know? but like i feel that its almost my fault that you don't come and chill now. did it scare you? i never asked many questions after every thing happened. some times it still makes me mad when i think of every thing that took place. you couldn't have said something earlier? looking back their were so many things that should have set you off allot sooner then it did. what was your first thought when you found out for sure? scared, disgusted, faltered, annoyed??? questions like this are the things that bother me. i need to tie up my loses ends. i guess maybe closer? not just with you with other things to. hm... getting off topic any way i guess what i'm trying to say is that...hm... i want you to care you know? it just seems like you don't want to see me. like the less the better almost. hm maybe that's it. i don't know i guess i just want you to miss me like i miss you. ya know?
-M.Luis
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8:52 PM
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