Thursday, September 24, 2009

ok really know...

hate.
that is a very strong word, agreed?
personally I don't think i could honestly say i truly hate any one.
there are people whom i strongly dislike i will admit to that but any one who i fully hate.
ok?
so any one out their who may think i "hate" you your wrong.
the thing is not that i hate you or that i have any type of grudge against you.
you only assumed that.
over the time where we were close friends i honestly felt like i was always trying so hard to be your friend rather than just being you friend.
it seemed as if i was always just an extra.
it's been said other wise lately though.
i guess you just never realized that you were always pushing me out or maybe you felt you did nothing wrong but so you know things were not good for a long time.
so stop telling me you were there.
you were not.
think when did we even last chill you do know things were bad before i gave up and changed right?
I will admit that i gave up on the friendship.
call me a quitter if you must tell people its my fault its fine.
but if you felt like you truly did not belong and that people did not want you around non the least try to make the effort to make you feel welcome would you not leave to?
not like there was hate there was just me moving on with life.
i dont understand why im now being seen as that bad person now.
its not like you ever made an effort your self.
well of course there was the multiple pointless and repetitive question of where i was going.
honestly did you care it's not like you were going to come were you?
think about it.
i mean do you realize how many times you asked me that same question in one night those random time our paths would cross.
hm i guess what im trying to say is stop assuming things, talking about me with others and just get your facts straight.
I don’t hate i just don’t care.
your as much to me as much as i am to you.
get it?
so to finish this if you really have something to say about me then just tell me straight up because this hole talking to people about me thing is getting old.
get it though your heads it not that there is even a problem were just not friends any more you all ready know that.

- M.Luis

my imagination at
8:34 PM